What choice i have? I left with no option. I need to make my move… and this time, it is hard, emotional and risky move. I need to move my king right into the battle. Its like I put my head into the chopping board. While my army of defense is strong, but self destruct timing bomb is start ticking again. There no safe side for me anymore. Its not like “either I kill… or be killed”, its more like either I killed while doing something or killed while sitting silently. Whats is my next move?

One mistake, my head will separate from my shoulder. There is no room for another mistake

However, I could just restart another game. It is real life, and the consequence I’ll bear for my whole life. Oh god….. what should I do? Oh god please help me...I really need your help...

sadness....huhuhu....